scatter brained

i'm feeling scatter brained lately and really want to get back to writing.
i just always have such minimal access to internet.

i tried starting a new one from scratch but its such a pain in the ass....
soo maybe a journal, on paper...so old fashioned;)
hope you're all well.

"If nothing else I am myself and that is all I have to give..."

good things to come

as ben gibbard's lovely voice is filling my ears singing about a portable television set i sit at my local starbucks waiting to work the day away...its weird how vacation revitalizes you, almost puts you on restart.
somehow i'm just...ok:)
and i love it.
everytime i'm driving to my love's house for our evening festivities after a hard day at work i just smile and feel so content.
i love our life.
its so rewarding, real and intimate.
we plan together, encourage each other and just fucking love each other.
i didn't know i could be this happy with someone, its so natural.
he is such a strong wonderful man...just like my daddy.

even though i've been stuck in a rut he has been by my side encouraging and stickin with me.
no i don't want to be workin at starbucks at twenty two struggling to pay bills but i make it work for right now.

looking at my options i'm thinking hair is for me and so excited for the future.
when my brother heads off to the army i'm going to be rooming with a friend of mine and i can't wait to have a girly place:)

my car is all fixed up now...everything is falling into place at the moment.
over our delicious brews me and rick had such a good talk last night just saying things of love and reaffirming how we feel for each other....might seem petty but i think all couples should take time to affirm their love for one another more often.

sigh...its your life.
take control.
own it.
not in the way other's think it should be but just what makes you happy.
so i'm not on top of the social scene or doing anything fancy but i'm happy, we are happy.
my life is molding into not only my own but we are sharing and i couldn't be more happy.

happy birthday America

its strange on the fourth of july this year...so used to the neighborhood breakfast at my parents, thent he parade and fireworks...good ol lebanon.
bummer.
well just chillin at rick's gonna catch some rays later then who knows.
off work today and tomorrow so i want to spend some time getting stuff in order for a freaking education.
its not fair that rick grows up wanting a wife with a career and falls in love with me and i ain't got a clue...just not fair at all.

i gotta figure something out.

my current top 3

movie: adjustment bureau
book: the circle, ted dekker
album: bon iver, bon iver

have a good day folks!

farewell dark hair...

yes sir today at 330 my dark locks will be blonde again:)
i'm excited but will definitely miss the sassy edge.
vacation ends tomorrow...florida was great.
sleepin in, bud light lime, sunshine, beach...all shared with my love mr webster.
just what i needed...now back to the grind.

its been awhile

man its good to be writing.
feels so nice to write out my thoughts sometimes...
well work is good, well sort of.
wanting to have a better attitude but leaving for florida tomorrow so that should help:)

man can't wait to hug my family.
i'm so blessed.
bills are paid up and just when i thought i was going to loose it(need new breaks for my car)my state return showed up.

i tell you what even more so in the bad i just can't not believe in God.
i'm so happy at the moment.

rick and i are spectacular.
im so in love with him and am so excited for our life together.
he is my strong and steady and just so good to me.
i'm so lucky to have him.

just being his girl and knowing i get to wake up to him everyday makes me smile from ear to ear...
we have been together five months and i'm still just as crazy about him...
well takin it a day at a time, he's my best friend....boo;)

well now onto music...MUST LISTEN TO BON IVER, BON IVER.
amazing new album.

in one word, beautiful.
the melodies and voice are just breathtaking.
that is all, just stopped by for a quick hey!

wish i had some pics but they have been on my phone so unable to load em up!

ps. we went to brad paisley...country...wow.