to the world

lately this is what i want to say to the world. not in a negative way believe it or not.

switching stores has really shaken up my life. i had such a tight schedule with work, school, boyfriend and personal life. it was perfection. now its a new commute, new employees i spend 8 hours a day with and less time with my boo. failed miserably at school this week, got myself sick and let the world's negativity and my bad attitude bring me down.
i'm not proud of it.
so today i slept in and woke up feeling refreshed. i'm in control of who i am and how i feel when i lay my head down at night. all else aside i feel my place in the world is to brighten someone's day everyday. be that ball of sunshine for someone...so i'm going to pick myself up, dust myself off and roll with the punches. gotta stay organized and disciplined this week. although i miss my youth and lack of responsibility i have to balance it out now.
in other news been doing a lot of self evaluating. had an appointment to get my tattoo but when i mentioned it to my boyfriend he was a little shaken. now it sounds manipulative and judgmental on his part but we had a good discussion about it and learned a lot about each other. he is okay with the idea and maybe down the road when the time is right i'll get one but for now i wanted to show him i was serious about him and bought him some sick oakley's instead;) ha he better keep me around.
it was more a statement of maturity that i respect him and want to be his other half. i told him as well that this is who i am and tattoos are a way i express myself and remind myself of my journey. you might think i'm a freak because i have tattoos well i think you are a freak if you don't. two sides, perspective. i know i'm out of his comfort zone but i love him good and treat him right. take me as i am or not at all.
so, he heard me out and we are cool and understood.
got a few goals set...gonna start workin out and quit smoking when my mom comes in FIVE DAYS.
ahhh i'm so excited! she is my bestest friend and i miss her daily dearly:)
well i'm going to attempt this homework now and head out to the slippery noodle for some drinks later, tata!
ps. i forgot to explain the picture. basically fuck you world for telling me i can't do something or that i am not beautiful. all lies.