if i was here i'd be happy, if i had this i'd be okay...blah blah blah.
just be where you're at and enjoy each moment.
i'm not saying don't set goals for yourself and dream of a lovely future but don't miss out on whats here happening now.
chillin at the office with taylor and just thinking about us...its crazy how its all unfolded.
i didn't plan on him being the way he is i'll tell you that.
we got in a fight last night and i don't say fight lightly but that's what it was.
i told him i'm unexplainable furious and will talk to him tomorrow but i'm done conversating...(while you're being an ass is what i wanted to say;)
but then after letting my head calm down a movie i just watched came to mind and they said that when you say you love someone that means the bad too...we have our disagreements but the things and issues that matter we are dead on.
there are so many things through our short relationships and conversations that have just blown my mind how much we are alike.
everything moved fast and sometimes it is weird and i'll be laying in bed thinking who is this stranger next to me but i wouldn't trade it for the world because its slowly but surely turning into sometime beautiful.
i mean come on life is short and you shouldn't waste time with someone unless you are happy and you shouldn't waste time with petty shit either...
one thing that is different is after talking about a future together we both got a bit freaked out and cold feet...there is nothing wrong with that.
i know a relationship takes work and i want to work through it with him but i'm not going to rush anything and think that it HAS to end in marriage or something.
i love him.
thats all i know.
his good and bad.
up here for the weekend excited to talk, hang out, laugh and hold hands...haha...so cheesy i know.
gotta stick to my guns though and remember who i am, hold my head high and stay strong.
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