bittersweet

this is so silly.
you have a girlfriend.
that changes everything.

you are happy and have someone that cares and that you care about, why chance it?
both of us unsure.
why risk a certain good on an uncertain good?
i mean get real, be logical.

its not the end of the world.
you know i love you and i know you love me.
nothing can change that.

are we both in love with something/someone that will never be again?
there is so much doubt and uncertainty, mistrust this time around...
i'm not bailing out and i'm not giving up.
i'm just trying to stop romanticizing my life and be real about it.

if you can't decide between us then thats that.
no hard feelings but i'm not going to carry that around in the relationship or cause you to think of her when we have a rough patch.
i've been hurt once...whats another hit?
she hasn't.

its strange having you stand up for another girl but i get it.
you know i love you and i'm good for you but you have certain addictions and desires that overpower your feelings and i cannot meet them.

sigh...so...when all else fails....

eat tacos.