the day after

after a long night of texting conversations and wet eyes its over.
i don't feel it quite yet.

i said all that i could.
its over.

not looking forward to the painful months, years, life ahead.
sure i'll get over it...or will i?
i thought i was over it.

i asked him how he did it?
erased the memories and our story...pretend i'm dead he said.
there were many times before i thought it was over but he always came back.
not this time.

fuck me.
how do you absorb the fact you have lost the love of your life?
maybe he is dead.
my anthony would never be like this.

well...here goes nothing.